When I look in the mirror, I hate what I see.
I’ve gotten so used to seeing the overweight me.
I start a new diet and it ends up on a shelf,
Like I’m trying to prevent seeing my skinnier self.
I need to get it under control, or I could die
So why is it I lack the motivation to even try?
I see all the problems, and what I’m doing wrong
So why is it I can’t change the song?
I’ll start tomorrow, the chorus always goes
The shame I feel inside, I doubt that anyone knows.
I hide how I truly feel from my family and friends,
I need some help before I meet unfavorable ends.
I wish I could sit down and share how I feel,
But the pain I’d show is just a little too real.
I need to let it all out and maybe shed some tears
I will never change if I can’t overcome my fears.
It’s time to change what I see,
It’s time to say goodbye to the overweight me…
© 2016 Joshua McNay
“I am trying to write down my thoughts as they pop in. After being called into work for a 16 hour shift, I got so tired I looked in the mirror and frankly I didn’t like what I saw.” – Joshua
Photo credit CC Couleur